life and my bebe =)

it had been such a long time i didn't lodge myself in here. 4 months after the first post counting! guess what dowh, there was a lot of things happened to me during the months i was disappeared from the appearances over here.everybody owned their hard time, same goes to me. i've been doing myself really rough in my down period. i broke up with my 2 and the half years relationship bf like nobody business. and of course this matter took time to accept and forget right? now i gonna stop talking bout that bastard. thanks to Bebe(you know who u're). i may called you as my strength to do this. without you, i won't be able to smile again and again. without you, i won't be able to stabilize myself. without you, i won't be to stand up. without you, i won't be able to be what i am now. i feel so blessed to Allah sent me such a good savior like him to lift me up from the dark.

i guess, you mr/ms. reader might wondering whois the Bebe eh? haha.. he's my current boyfriend, or i may called him my soul mate(i'm very sure about this) in short explanation. i had known him for almost a year but things get us closer and closer when i treated him as my brother(aku kan takder adik lelaki) at that time. till one day, i found myself admired eventually(it happened on the late February 2007). i shall labeled myself as his secret admire haha. i fall for my own brother, yes, it's shy to admit it but yet it's true and fact thought. it took me time to know him well,to win his heart. everything was like so connected when i dreamed of him for the very first time in April. That was the sweetest dream ever, that dream brought me to hopes, and of course makin hari makin sayang aku sama dia. meanwhile, i pray to Allah a lot about him. so one day i could be with him. yet my prayer has been answered! syukur alhamdulilah. and now he's mine for sure. Our first meet was on the Triple 7(07 July 2007) at KL. For the very first eye contact met was in KLIA when he and Zai came and fetched me. the first thing i noticed was his eyes. haha.. there's no doubt that he has a pair of alluring eyes. there was so much things happened during the Triple 7, i could say it was very sweet of his pampered over me during the day. an unforgetable sweet memory. the Port Dickson was the witnessed of us. i was with him all the time till sending him back to his home till he left the car that night. he was going to UK for 2 weeks duration of vacation. then the sad stories began for 2 weeks.. dalam sedehy2 tu, 3 days after the triple 7(10 July 2007), i ended up all my hidden feeling with a truly confession towards him. then things was like i'm the most HAPPIEST woman on the earth as he proposed me a relationship juga that time.

that's how me and him get to be together. after a long await, but it's worth, at last after the prays and hopes i had been living and dreaming about all the time, he's mine and i'm not letting him go that easily. i love you so much Faris Ameer Izat bin Ismail. i love you so much bebe. i love you forever my soul love. i don't mind dying for his love. as long as i can keep him mine ever after.

bebe taught me more deeper meaning about love and happiness which i haven't experienced myself before. and of course, he's the one and only could make me smile happily with his own ability like nobody did to me before. he filled and brighten up my emptiness heart with his passion love and care. i admit, he's the man. yeah yoo he's the man.

lastly, mmg aku sayang gila sama dia okek? kekekeke...