A loving heart to thee by Saira

The 1st year anniversary!

2008-07-11T19:47:00.002+08:00

buzz it up! wow, it's been quite a mean time i had been not continue the blog journey. well, time tells everything. my schedule is well packed and eventually reading blogs isn't on my everyday list.

okek okek let's get to the point last thrusday which is yesterday, the 10th was my 1st year anniversary with my baby boyfriend =) 1 year baby. tats what we talk about, 1 year. haha, im preety much excited our relationship goes stronger and stronger and extend longer and longer till so so on. we didnt celebrate together, distance matter =( but did rang ourselves a wishing phonecall. thanks to my bestfriend, Ann for wishing us on the special day. thanks to the Rezza's girl too, Syikin for wishing us :P

guess to the person whom i love so much, Bebe i would love to let you know that i adore you forever. and happy anniversary love, eh happy belated! haha. it's 11th today. no more 10th you huhu. im so happy to have a man like you in my life :)

8 Things

2008-02-27T22:54:00.004+08:00

8 things I’m passionate about:
1. My Bebe
2. Perfumes
3. My Bella
4. Vintages
5. Flowers
6. Ice-Creams
7. Arts
8. Baby's cook ;)

8 things I say often:
1. Bebeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!
2. I love you Bebe and miss u :((((((
3. Kasi RM5 reload
4. Tia mok
5. Bah bah bah
6. manadaaaaaaaaaaaaa
7. bebe bongok ;);)
8. ellowwww and byebyeeeee

8 books I’ve read recently:
1. did not buy any magazines or books to be read this month
2. -
3. -
4. -
5. -
6. -
7. -
8. -

8 things to do before I die:
1. Tying a knot with Bebe, having kids and everything with him. it's just everything!
2. Finish my studies.
3. Posses own career, car and house to live.
4. Able to give my parents the money that i earn from working hard and an extra extra comfortable life to live on.
5. A loving and caring mother to her children. :P
6. Raising charity funds for the orphanage.
7. Traveling with the love one.
8. A garden that the flowers plant by myself for my love one.

8 songs I could listen to over and over again:
1. Jason Mraz's Bella Luna
2. No Doubt's Sunday Morning and I'm Just A Girl
3. Celine Dion's Song For You and Because You Love Me
4. Tamia's Me, If I Were You and Officially Missing You
5. Titi Dj's Galau and Separuh Hidupku
6. The Cranberries's Animal Instict
7. Alicia Key's Superwomen and The Thing About Love
8. Avril Lavigne's I Miss You

8 things I learn in the last year:
1. No to yell and mess thing around you when you got mad
2. I learn how to truly love someone so so much and stay laughing with him all day long! this is very true haha
3. Being truly honest with someone that i love so much, no more 3rd party scandals this time and forever will be.
4. Life goes on! yessssss moveeeeeee on babyyyyyyyyyy
5. She's a mannnnnneaterrrrrrrrrrrrrrr(have u heard about maneater? wahahha)
6. More stronger and determined than i used to be before.
7. Accept the fact that i seriously don't wish to be happen(i still dislike the matter of fact! wahaha)
8. Can only club and drink when my love one around!

8 People I want to tag.

1. Bebe
2. Momoi
3. -
4. -
5. -
6. -
7. -
8. -

everything about the 5 things

2008-02-27T21:52:00.003+08:00

Name 5 Things You Want For Christmas

1. My Bebe's present
2. Gifts
3. Cash
4. Vacations
5. A moonlight dance

Name 5 Thing You Want For Valentine's Day

1. Still the same answer : My Bebe's present
2. ROSES (A MUST FOR EVERY WOMEN)
3. Hugs and Kisses
4. Dinner for two :P
5. Dance

Name 5 People Who Are Close To You

1. Bebe
2. Momoi
3. Richard
4. Mag
5. Bella

Name 5 Things That Make You Mad

1. Liars
2. Backstabber
3. When my precious stuff got stolen
4. Intolerable
5. Rudeness

Name 5 Things That You Like

1. Anything about my precious man, Bebe :P
2. Arts & Musics
3. Vintages
4. Flowers
5. Serenity

Name 5 Things That You Dislikes

1. Annoying unwanted human in my life
2. When you have to accept the fact that you don't wish to
3. Hot heat sun baby
4. Chili
5. Deep water

I'm gonna tag...

1. Bebe
2. Momoi
3. -
4. -
5. -

Song For You =)

2008-01-28T21:57:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i was listening to Celine Dion's new tracks. Her new album has widely various compilation from the slow till ass shaking tuned. I am one of her huge fan since i was still a little girl. I got influenced by my Dad la listening to her song this haha. Yet i found out one song entitled itself as A Song For You. The music was awesome, piano and violin sound supporter, my type la abis cherita wahaha. I just love them and the song itself. there goes the lyric.

A Song For You by Celine Dion

I couldn't live
I couldnt live without your love
for one kiss
well I'd give everything up
there's no words I can describe
what I feel deep inside
so I let this song say it all

Then I hope you'll understand
once you've listened till the end

Heard the music in my head
so before I could forget

I start singing
yeah I was singing
this song
for you

Just made up the words
la la la ohhh ohhh yeah
my heart with a melody

so I am singing
this song
for you

I dedicate this song to my Sweetie. A song for you yeah for you :P love you so much Bebe

Bebe still remember the cat u used to pamper while we cook at the back kitchen? =p

Memoirs & My Weekends

2008-01-27T21:48:00.000+08:00

Love is always us right bebe? and this heart shape berries are for you =p

yesterday, i went to citymall with momoi. the real intention to of mine to get her over was to replace her broken sunglasses. so there goes my main point. i drove straight away to her rented house right after my work. i finished early because my student for the last period class didn't turn up. I am supposed to finish teaching the kids at 5.30p.m sharp. it was tiring day for me, woke up early at the 7 and something then get myself ready there before the teaching time. well as i mentioned K I D S, kids, playful, naughty, lazy bump.. and so so u may label their attitude very well yeah.. some of my student was quite good enough, but some, u have to bribe them first before u want them to do the works given. i love teaching them, all i have to be is being PATIENT. but that doesn't mean that they can get on my nerve easily :P So Sunday, that was sooooooooo Sunday today haha.. as usual i started teaching at 9 in the morning and finished at 2.30pm. i didn't go anywhere today, ride myself to work and home, that's all.

i wrote, i went to citymall right in the first paragraph, so we was about to look for the sunglasses replacement. but yet we stop by the Giant market, momoi was looking for her stuff. and myself lingered around there looking for all the stuff price. the price was quite reasonable, not that expensive for me, and not that cheap, moderate one. i saw this comforter sets which was tagged for RM49-60. the prints was really niceeeeeeeeeeee to me.. nice and cuteeeeee wahaha.. i love cartoons and love shape prints =p i nearly get myself blindfold and buy it but my heart stop me from doing that because mum will always buy me stuffs wahaha.. so asking her to buy that will be better. so i went to the frozen foods section, there was a lot of labels and foods along the long cold storage and i saw the Fish fillet which i and bebe cooked sama2 for our fish&chip dinner and supper. That fillet i saw remind me of him haha.. and then i went to the veggie section, momoi was looking for broccoli. it remind me of him too when i saw that veggies, the pale and green broccolis, there was a day i cooked him a surprise dinner meal =p i recall i masak the chicken, veggie and meat pregedel =p i sengaja cook the veggie specially for him, i wanted him to try the veggie and wanted him to know eating veggie is good =p thanks god he like it haha. I always give the best to my love one and to especially him, i want the best for him. for my bebe wek wek =p after that, we beli sunglasses la at the upper floor. then we have our dinner at the old setting coffee shop. next to the coffee house was the place which i been to with bebe the donut shop. i love eating flavoured donut, and so do my bebe. =p we have thing in common =p looking at the shop just got myself recalling the memory i used to have with him there. Citymall left memories of me and him when he was around here. T_________T rindu bebe today i makan yogurtberry pown teringat dia =/ mum bought a plain one so i ate sambil terfikir2 dia la.

some place and thing would left me a great precious memories with bebe on my history life. i'm a very nostalgically person. i have this feeling when i started to know bebe, and the feeling get stronger when we officially got ourself as a lover.

Strawberries and black cat ;) ;) for bebe. bebe u mmg ngam hitam aitessss ;)

Looking back at 2007

2008-01-08T20:25:00.000+08:00

Glad to see 2007 go? :
Certain dates still fresh for me, like Triple 7 and 25 December 2007, those were memorable days for me. hardly for me to just let go like that, not hardly but i wont never.

Age turned in 2007? :
19

Did you change your hair in 2007? How?:
yes, i used to have long and blonde hair. then i coloured it to red and cut it shorter and shorter.

The best part of 2007? :
The June, Triple 7, 25 December - 31 December

The worst part of 2007? :
Triple 7 night :), Middle of December till 25

Any new crushes in 2007? Who? :
Yes, he's my current bf suda; Faris Ameer Izat bin Ismail

Who will you never forget?
Faris Ameer Izat bin Ismail

Who did you wish you did not meet? :
My ex bf

Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend in 2007? :
Yes, Bebe la =p

Did you fall in love in 2007? :
yessss.. to bebe juga

Did you get caught in a lie? What was it? :
no i guess

Did you call them out? :
no

Funniest moment of 2007? :
With bebe, we had alot of funniest moments together.. uncountable times.. wahaha.. we joke alot when he's around

Most embarrassing moment of 2007? :
nothing particular

Did you take any vacations in 2007? Where? :
yes, to kl jumpa bebe.

Any new hobbies of 2007? :
new hobbies? love, sayang, care and gayut/sms sama bebe :P

Did you get a new job in 2007? :
yes, a part time job for 3 months.

Did you host a party in 2007? :
yes.. my birthday party on March

Where did most of your money go? :
internet shopping, Bebe, cigarettes and phone reload coupon.

What song will always remind you of 2007? :
Jason Mraz - Bella Luna ; Ada Cinta

What do you wish you抎 done more of? :
i wish i could stay closer with him.

What do you wish you’d done less of? :
CIGARETTES! damnnnn boy i had hard time to quit

Biggest achievement in 2007? :
I get thru to Semester 4 and the most important thing, i met someone who truly love me for who i am and so much :)

Biggest failure in 2007 :
i failed to fly myself next to him physically everyday =(

In 2007, did you lie to miss a day of work / school? :
yes why not haha

Did you move in 2007? :
no

Did you wish on a shooting star in 2007? :
i wish on stars, but sini manada shooting star

What was your greatest musical discovery? :
Antonio Vivaldi, his musics are magnificent!

What was the best book you read? :
Sweetheart, it's a poetry book

What was your favourite movie of the year? :
Love is Cinta, Resident Evil 3

What did you want in 2007 and got?

i want bebe, now i have him! =p new cellphone, new car amplifier

What did you want in 2007 but didn’t get?

i wish to be just next to him.

Did you make-out in public in 2007? :
no

What抯 the ringer on your cellphone? :
Kat De Luna - Am I Dreaming in spanish

What kept you sane?
Bebe

Who did you miss?
Bebe, everyday IMYS sama dia

Who was the best new person you met?
Bebe :) he's the best, the great.. he's everything..

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I wish i could live with him together

Did you drink too much in 2007? :
yes.. during July haha.. that was my last alcohol consumption

Your favorite commercial of 2007? :
im not into it

Something you couldn抰 leave home without in 2007? :
my jewelleries wahaha.. and Bebe's mini picture

How did you spend New Year’s 2007? :
i went out with my ex, been to Island Bar and had stout and some alcohol drinks till he got drunk.

Your birthday? :
I celebrated with tons of babes and my parents surrounded me in beach hotel poolside restaurant. well u can have a look on it of my celebration my very 1st write on this blog.

How do you plan to usher in the new year?
Work to get some income for my love and family and study, i have one year more to complete my course.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007 :
i had someone new in my life, he taught what is happy and strength, and brought me some extra love and care. i called him as my life, he's everything, all that u could be label as love, happy, strength, care, trust, loyalty, honesty.. everything.. he even teach me what is patience, i used to have a bad tempered, no one could tame me, only him could do something miracle on that. he taught me how to wait, so i wait =) for this love sake of us..

the 25 December 2007 till 6 January 2008

2008-01-06T14:03:00.000+08:00

25 December 2007, this was the most memorable date for me, finally after a hard time prayer and hopes he came juga to kk. thanks bebe, i could been so lost if u couldnt make it. thank you so much for coming.. so he was here for about 2 weeks jugala lama, i hope he could extend more, but what i expected became unexpected situation.. aaa.. lets talk about the happy moments first..

we learned and shared a lot in my home, from the a to z. just mention anything :) nothing to be missed out. there is only two word i could described him as in, SWEET and romantic. we did everything, the cook.. dinner and supper! haha.. bebe cooked me the fillets, sedappppp sangat! and the lamb.. it was fabulous.. no other man cook me such a nice meals before.. and the movies nights.. we watched a total of 4 movies in this 2 weeks time.. avp 2, i am legend, the ferryman and the house.. nice thrilled horror movie.. i got to hug and lay my head upon his shoulder most of those movies we watched.. sweet yeah :p within this 2 weeks, i saw his face next to me when i was sleeping yet when i was wake up.. those baby look face :) somehow sejuk hati bila u pandang those face.. i have a lot to write about.. at this moment.. i just cant write it all in one thought.. so wait for the next episode! :P btw, i love u so much bebe

6-1-2008 4.14pm

ohhhhh yesss.. i really have alot of stuff to write on.. i received gifts from him.. he gave me my favourite perfume, a hug able white bear, a :@) phone chain and baby tee.. thanks sweetie for all the gift u bagi.. i appreciate and like it so much.. in return of those gifts i bagi him a kiss for a thank =p and and.. some gifts juga for him, itu u have to ask him la apa i kasi.. a simple gift with a deep meanings..

we have things in common, we get along together easily, we laugh together, we burp together, we yawn together.. yes i know some girls are shy to show that infront of guys, but i dont wahaha.. kenapa mok malu2 kan? bf sendiri juga the one u love so much! :P what else we did, we tdo and bangun together, we hug we kiss wee wee weeee everything.. haha.. this home and room tells everything about us.. even bila i driveeeee.. sempat lagiiii he lay his head dekat my peha sambil tgk i drive.. haha.. sweet.. i'm really happy to have him..

during these 2 weeks, he learned something new juga.. something i think which he never have intention to touch or even learn waaha.. i taught him plucked the guitar.. just a simple song.. he's getting good.. yeah improve laa kann after few days practise :P sempat lagi with his resistance sexy eyes..

the most hard time to accept the fact that he's going to leave me juga.. like i said, i hope he could extend till his birthday. but the parents plak datang sini secara suprise which i am so helpless :( and couldn't do anything more. i cried a lot, infront of him this time, i couldnt hold the tears long enough juga kan.. he's my best companion, my man, the one i could rely on when im down, i could hold and hug him when i need comfort..

sehari before he went back, i bought him flowers, i know he love flowers. see? we have things in common kan i told u wahaha. 3 chrysanthemums and 2 red roses :) guess what the meaning, i love you forever&ever. thats the 2nd suprised. the first one oh ya lupa plak cherita, kami after dinner with both our parents bah tu that friday night, so i'm thinking to buy him 2 slices of cakes with candle on the top. i didnt tell him thought, bah suda suprise kan.. i bawak him pigi secret recipe at warisan, i asked him to naik atas dulu meantime i di bawah tengah order cake.. i ingat ada this mango delight, unfortunately habis dah :( so i ambik chocolate la.. then bila naik2 atas duduk with him... i act like nothing happen neyh haha.. suddenly the worker came in supriseeeeee with the cake i order haha.. bebe so terkejut! i could see happiness in those eyes of him that moment.. happiness speechless haha.. luv you be :P

last day, it was sad to see that he's leaving.. i manage to hold myself from crying.. tapi mmg sedehy la kan in the heart.. berat hati nak kasi lepas dia.. but what to do.. makin sayang plak im with him, thanks God for answering my prayer.. please be with us all the time, because i really do love him so much, and won't stop loving him. i could feel the love is growing strongly in between us. sayang bebe so much :)

7-1-2008 12.21am

new hair

2007-12-19T20:03:00.000+08:00

having a new hair cut isn't that bad actually. i cut my hair shorter again yesterday, shorter than before! haha, but still i had some feminine instinct beyond the hairstyle i picked. i believe sacrificing a lil bit of your hair might buang sikit sial tho. and bring me some luck. so begitula cherita diaa.. i cut and dye as usual and highlight it abit..

sorry make up pown tiada neyh haha.. just a very plain white of me.

2007-12-14T01:04:00.000+08:00

Dear Allah,
i know you read me, and i know you know what i want, please don't turn back my prayer to a nightmare, please.. i had sacrifice a lot to get him to be mine, to get him to be closer to me, and to get him not to be away from me again and again. i dreamed my prayer, my wish, and my hope, but only you're the one be able to approve and listen to me, please. don't take him away from me once again =( you honor and promise every of the single mankind of promises. please don't take away the dream of us =( i just love him so much, i couldn't afford to take another man to replace his place anymore. Ya Allah yang maha mulia and pengasih, please grant my dream and wish. =(

Survey again!

2007-12-13T00:11:00.000+08:00

It's all about brand! bebe yang suruh tulis neyh :$

Pencil Case - Extreme

2. HandPhone- S.E. W85Oi

3. Watch - Tissot, Charles Jourdan

4. Handbag- XOXO, Christian Dior

5. Purse/Wallet- Braun Buffel, Carlo Rino

6. Pens - Parker, Sheaffer

7. Computer - no brand =p

8. Shoes - Christian Louboutin & Jimmy Choo!(hopefully one day), Vincci

9. Shirts - Dolce & Gabbana, PDI

10. Pants - Levis

11. Cosmetics - Estee Lauder, Stila, MAC

12. Facial - Loreal

of course i miss you =(

2007-12-12T14:44:00.000+08:00

I sure do miss you bebe :(
love u so much and always and too waiting for u to come on this 25 December 2007

Surveys for today

2007-12-12T13:23:00.000+08:00

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1. The phone rings. What is your ring
tone?
Am i dreaming by kat deluna in latin version

2. Did you go anywhere yesterday?
yeah to the gd express

3. Who was the last person you shared
beds with?
my mum

4. Favorite drink?
green tea

5. Does the person you like know that
you like them?
yes

6. Last time you talked to your mom?
tadi lunch time

7. Where are you right now?
infront of my pc

8. If you HAD to kiss the last person
you kissed, would you?
sure, i love to kiss my bebe tho =p

9. Favorite gadget in the kitchen?
probably the mixer

10. Favorite pie?
chicken pie!

11. How is your hair?
getting longer suda but still short for me la

12 . Where's the last place you walked
to?
my dining room

13. Last time you had a sleepover?
mcam lama suda neyh taw wahaha

14. Latest you stayed up in the past
week?
12am

15. What are you doing?
chatting with be and filling this survey

16. Have you been in a car accident?
yeah once, but not that teruk la

17. What is the last thing you said
aloud?
bebe bangunnnnnnn!!

18 . Who's the 1st person on your
missed calls list?
Bebeluna

19 . What did the last text message you
received say?
"wahaha, be tgk jak okek nanti" by bebe

20. Last time you went to Church?
never been there

21. Story behind your Friendster song?
i just love the jazz tone

22. Whats bothering you right now?
the flea that leave scars on my legs :(

DESCRIBE YOUR:

23. Wallet?
purple and small

24. Eyes?
dark brown

25. Life?
fine and great!

WHAT ARE YOU:

26. Doing this weekend to come?
i don't have any plan tho

27. Wearing?
baju rumah

28. Wanting?
25 December!

29 . Listening to?
Run the Show by Kat DeLuna

30. What do you smell?
DermaVeen

31. Do you sleep late?
yes

32. Do you like seafood?
yesssssssssssssss my favourite that!

33. Do you remember your dreams?
yes

34. Do you consider yourself a study
freak?
not really

35. Do you speak another language other
than English?
yes

36. What did you do last night?
makan ubat, sapu ubat, main sairaro, bergayut and sleep

37. What do you hate?
i hate liars and people yang take drugs.

38 . Orange or apple juice?
orange

39. Who were the last people you went
out to lunch with?
myself :( in my dining room

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Name. Age. Gender?
dmbk, 19, female

What describes your relationship
situation?
long term and distance relationship

Where were you three hours ago?
in my room

What was the last movie you saw?
audrey hepburn's, i don't remember the title tho

Who was your last conversation with?
dr. sidhu

Ever been out without underwear on?
yes

Color of your shirt?
pink

What is your middle name?
maisarah

Ever been to the beach at night?
yeah.. used to be everyday last time

Good advice if you ever go camping?
:$ pray alot to god so those momok wont disturb u while u're having a good sleep wahaha

Are you a bad influence?
should be not kot wahaha

What was the last argument you had
about?
i don't remember sorry

Rather have your name or your
siblings name?
i want my own!

Do you like someone right now?
yesss.. my bebe =p

Do they like you back?
yesss why not? he's my bf bah

Favorite colors?
white, pink, green, red, black, gold

Ever held a baby?
yes

Last song you heard?
Jason Mraz's Bella Luna

Wear glasses?
sunglasses :P

Last thing someone bought you?
nasi campur by mum

Does your best friend have a
friendster?
indeed

Whose page did you visit last?
Saira

Where is your phone?
next to me

Next event you're going to?
tak plan lagi

Do you have one or more Britney
Spears CDs?
no juga

Best event you've ever been to?
i think it was..

Emo or Scene?
scene

iPod or Zune?
ipod

Seen the Simpsons movie ?
not my type tho

Do you sing in the car?
hell yeah

Do you ever sing in the shower?
yeah

What's in your CD player right
now?
mixed up songs by various artists

Last person to tell you they loved
you?
Saira

Do you think they meant it?
yes, he loves me more than anything else :P

Last person spoke to on the phone?
Dr Sidhu

Do you like to dance?
yes, dancing is my passion

Have you ever written a song?
once in a blue moon wahaha

Ever been proposed to or proposed
to someone?
havent yet =(

Want to go to Uni/College?
yes uni for someday

Last Pub you went to?
shenni, last may plak tu kan.. punya lama suda

Ever stayed up all night?
yeah

Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings,
or Star Wars?
Harry Potter and LOTR

Who is the next person you will
kiss?
Saira

A recent memory?
Triple 7, it still fresh for me although that date happened to be on July

Who did you copy this off?
Pravin

Baths or Showers?
both for satisfaction

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FIVE LASTS:
1. Last beverage
~: plain water

2. Last phone call
~: smc from dr. sidhu

3. Last CD played
~: mmm i think yang number 2 kot in the cd changer sana kreta

4. Last time you cried
~: last friday

5. Last text message sent to you says
~: "wahaha, be tgk jak okek nanti" by bebe

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice
~: yeah

2. Been cheated on?
~: yeah

3. Kissed someone & regretted it?
~: yeah, i regret kissing those filthy losers

4. Lost someone special?
~: they regret losing me adala wakaka

5. Been depressed
~: yeah, everyone pown pernah bah

6. Been drunk and threw up?
~: threw up? tia la juga sampai begitu

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. white
2. pink
3. green

THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:
1. Made a new friend
~: no

2. Fallen out of love
~: yeah.. with my bebe :P

My 5th month anniversary!

2007-12-10T01:17:00.000+08:00

Hope our love last till our very last breath.
I love you so much Faris Ameer Izat bin Ismail. :)

I wanna be loved by you, just you,
And nobody else but you,
I wanna be loved by you, alone!
Boop-boop-a-doop!

I wanna kissed by you, just you,
Nobody else but you,
I wanna be kissed by you, alone!

Boop-boop, I couldn't aspire,
To anything higher,
Than, filled with desire,
To make you my own!
Boop-boop-a-doop, boop-boop-a-doop!

by Marilyn Monroe

Survey for the 2007

2007-12-09T22:23:00.000+08:00

1) What is your most memorable thing that happened in year 2007?

Triple 7 =) and 10.07.07 and the june conversation in between me and my bebe, and of course the first time i dream about him.

2) What did you enjoyed the most from your 'memorable thing'?

I enjoyed many things precisely, like the kisses, the manjaness, those eyes,those words and voice that melt my heart instantly hahaha.. and everything.. everything la about those day.. the both day I meant ekekke

3) What is your most embarassed moment in this year?

One of my friend accused me for some nonsense acts during my drunk time. But the matter of fact I’m innocent and didn’t do anything.

4) Your happiest moment for year 2007?

Triple 7 and 10.07.07

5) Your saddest moment for year 2007?

The moment I knew that he’s leaving me for UK, and the moment I witnessed with my 2 eyes he left the door that triple 7 night for his trip.

6) Any goals for year 2007?

I had already achieved half.. and yet 2 more to be done.. =p

7) Rundown for year 2007

january - i had 2 guys in one time which make me hard to make decision to choose within these 2. one who undergo 3 years relationship with me and the new scandal to be 1 month saja wahaha. thanks God because helping me to stay in alert and keep my secret safely wakaka.. play safe la kan orang bilang. biasala.. u looking for the best to be love and keep kan? new semester begin.. i was in semester 2 for 4 months.

february - then here comes my bebe, i started to notice and be close with him at this month. unfortunately the close relationship brought some internal flame and jelousy for my scandal, poor him wahahaha. things get worst and we argue about this matter. but surprisingly i wasn't defending my scandal, but my bebe. As quickly i announce my bebe as my little adorable brother to save him from this situation. dia pula try to ilang for days =( yang pelik dia, i started to have some feeling that i miss him so much.. i just can't afford the day without him.. haha.. weird right? he's just my brother but why i'm acting like missing him so badly? =/ i think i like him haha.. but what to do? i'm stucked in between those pity guys. oh yes, my valentine date this year was my girlfriend, si Girl. sad kan? i had been celebrating without my bf for 4 years straight! i've been in a worst drunk juga this month.. till i have to stay up di rumah momoi till 6 in the morning baru balik :$

march - things getting worst plak in between my steady relationship punya ex bf yang 3 years tu and my 3 months scandal. as usual la, both of them argue with me about stupid matters. in this month too, i was dumped by my scandal. the reason he dumped me, because he has no time for me and busy and so so on which i don't remember, not relevant right the reasons he gave? i didn't cry pown nor sad, insteady i felt absolutely relief! in this month plak, it's my birthday on the 27th. =p i am officially 19 years old. old suda =(

april - lets see, i have never gone out with smile if i was detain in love rehab. the dilemma keep going and i'm getting boring with ex. people said love is in the air! so i'm looking for the future replacement wakaka.. as if la kalau dapat kan.. in the same time pown, i'm trying my best to save my 3 years relationship, but looks like all my efforts were just a waste of time and ideas. this month i dream about my bebe, huh, suddenly plak tu i dream about him. but thanks, the dream was really wonderful. haha.. really.. my most wonderful ever.. i had him beside me.. and kissing him on the dream.. then i terbangun =/ damn.. time tu i was having a nap.. while tunggu time pigi my class.. starting from that day onwards, my feeling get stronger and stronger, i couldnt stop thinking about him.. but i know it's not the right time yet to tell him how i felt for him.. so i wait again.. sometimes i called him, actually i miss to hear his voice =/ that was my real intention actually why i love to call him hahaha.. so it comes to the end of the 2nd semester.. i study hard la kan.. hope to pass and get to go to 3rd semester on the august!

may - so my dilemma keep going in between that pity bastard ex. told you, even the love rehab couldn't help me kan. he came and visit me here for about a week, yet we had several arguments during the week. and the worst part, u don't wanna know i bet, he nearly beat me up. nearly dowh.. i was very disappointed with his attitude. i thought our relationship are back to normal when he's around yet i was totally wrong. i was about to give up. but i'm still hoping for some changes in him. i have really horrible month. with those arguments, with those things pecah sana sini.. like i'm doing all this, i thought he would show some sympathize on me.. yet he's making things getting worst.. i'm getting fed up seriously.. so my ex scandal come and find me juga in this month haha.. he wanted to come back but hahaha.. im still fooling around with him as usual.. nothing serious happen.. he dump me so he's paying for what he have done kan? mean time, when i'm down, bebe was like an angel from heaven accompany my sad times, i don't know how things get me along with him but.. in between my ex and him, i definately choose him rather than my 3 years relationship.. why? because i can't afford to lose someone good and know how to make me smile like him.. i'm getting sayang him.. sayang him more and more.. we started to have some long conversation on the phone.. haha.. it's not about the 1st 30 minutes.. but 1 hour or 2 hours and so so.. haha.. so about my studies, there was a short 2 months sem during this.. may and june.. i was really a lazy bump.. mana lagi dengan my problems, i'm really lazy to go for some classes.

june - juneee..... june june june! i loveeeeeee this month alot.. u wanna know why? keep reading haha.. all this entire month i focus on my adorable brother, bebe but not my ex tu wahahah.. keep reading =p i gave my bebe new number last month ngam2 mok abis bulan suda and a :@) photo frame and the phone chain. the one he's using now with triple 7 in it. haha.. our relationship getting closer than before.. really close u know.. i can feel him that he don't wanna lose me.. that's good :P make me more sayang sayang him.. so my dilemma between my ex keep going.. i told you im getting fed up right for last month? this month lagi laaa.. menyampah!!!! soooooooooo.. i malas want to care about the problems going inbetween me and him so much, bwuat apa? the one hurts alot wasnt him, but me juga.. and the one who should be accredit for bringing smiles and laughter is bebe juga. haha.. thanks god for sending me a good angel like him so i can smiles whenever i sad or gila wahahaha.. =p trust me, he is really good in making me smile and tame me. yet something sad juga happened this month, i forced bebe to tell me the truth wether he's going to UK or not, first he don't want to tell me, second too, till i cried.. u know cried hahaha.. i was wondering why i cry, but the tears just suddenly came out from my eyes wanting him to tell me the truth, sampai i marah and finished credit pown he don't want to tell me, maybe dia tia sampai hati mengkali to tell me the answer, at last he told me juga, it was a very disappointing answer from him i had heard after that. i try to accept the fact that he's going, by having weeks crying, and still i'm hoping that he's not going. sakit hati u know.. but what to do.. i blamed the fate for being so cruel to us. we had not miss any single day or hours on the phone during the weeks, this feeling make me more sayang him.. during the weeks, we have been spending time together, talking on the phone and comforting each other, man.. this feeling is awesome.. god looks like u made us like loving and care with each other without limit.. i bought a ticket which was just exactly the same date for KAOS gathering and the day he leaving for the trip. my main intention to come to KL was actually to see him, and spend the time with him before he leaving. so my ticket is ready! and yet the plan is just wait to be done :P

july - july! triple 7 =p my best date ever with bebe. u wanna know why? i never date with guys that younger than me haha.. from the airport till the beach and car.. everything was just wonderful and perfect... those sexy eyes and smile he had gosh.. that's the key baby =p i miss to them :$ and miss to pinch his nipples too!! awahaha.. triple 7 was the best day in my life. just because of him u know wahaha.. btw he's a good kisser. i love to kiss him =p i bought him a perfume as a gift for him when i sampai airport saja that day.. i hope he likes tat smell.. sexy smell that wahaha.. the scene in the car when the time i sent him back home was the most sad time, i managed to hold my tears by keep looking outside and somewhere else, but yang best thing happened, he was sooooooooooo sooooooo manjaaaaaaaaa.. kalah sial orang lain sebelum2 neyh wahaha.. i just love the way he was that time.. till till then he left itu kreta sob T_______T =( i was asking my feeling, is this what i called a brother treat? or a lover treat? i was so confused.. but god i love him so much.. in the same day too i was dumped by my ex. he wanted that so badly so i granted his wish. i was dumped u know during the happiest day in my life, but i don't even give a single fucking damn on it wahaha.. not even cry.. or sad.. just because i know this day going to be happen juga.. i've prepare and i know i'm stronger. poor him, i'm not the old Sara he could just simply make me cry or whatsoever. I'm just someone who you couldnt just simply step on. Poor this bastard, skrang baru la dia terhengeh2 wanna meet me until call me plak tu sampai i balik dari kl wakakaka.. funny sial.. but that doesnt melt me anymore boy.. what over is over he can just go to hell and seek for some forgiveness from god ;) ;) 10.07.07 is another memorable date in my life.. me and bebe both confessed and we're officially couple! :) 3 days jak im single trus ada bf suda wahahah.. thus im lucky enough kan? wakaka.. i knoww.. one goal are down.. =p life is changing when u have someone new.. new hopes, new looks, new attitude, and new lover of course named Bebe =p i had promised my self no more dramatic scandals going to happen .. yet i will be loyal to him only .

august - the first month with bebe =p love getting stronger and stronger.. im going to semester 3 this time! :P but i failed few subjects, like pengajian islam, coral draw and d.p semester 1 which i still havent repeat yet. oh yes, i cut my hair.. it's really short.. i picked bob cut style.

september - 2nd month with bebe =p nothing much happened this month.. makin sayang sama dia. my skins started to make some problems.. itchy and redness which really make me fuss. i hate it. =( yet get injection for it. banyak btol assignments kena kasi during this semester.. so i hope and plan to finish it up all nanti!

october - slamat hari raya month! kekeke.. the celebration of the muslim honorable month.. 3rd month with bebe =p i wish i could celebrate with bebe here :$ well i bought him some gifts as usual =p i started to do some of my assignments. been to this ship called what MV Douglas and bought some books! yet i bought bebe a book juga =p and some things hehe.. =p

november - the 4th month with sayang. been to bee's birthday party. i was forced to drink in the party yet i successfully refused to do so =p i bawa momoi to the party too, and she was completely drunk haha.. so i have to bring her back home =p and be back on time before 1 =p nanti bebe marah plak kan balik2 lambat :$ i bought bebe the air ticket.. so he's coming here on 25th december confirmed. that is on christmas day! this month is a very stressful month indeed, end of the semester is around the corner.. i try to finish all my assignments and hand up on time. one of my work on the design project 3 got a very good review from my lecturer ms. Jeniffer which she asked me if i am able to re-print in bigger size to be place on the exhibition. why not i said? wahaha.. it shows that people appreciate your art work kan. =p and the skin problem of mine getting worsttttttttttttttttttttttt.. i had consulted alot of doctors, alot of medicine, injections going and money yet the result was still the same. the last doctor told me to refer to the skin specialist as soon as possible.

december - sayang i just wanna tell u i really love u so much =) our love just getting stronger and stronger.. i can't live without u after all what we've spent, i love u so so mwuahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. preety less things here.. school holiday started, i finished all my assignment on time without any left behind :P and tomorrow 10 December 2007 is the 5th month with sayang bebe! =p and too i have to go SMC 8 in the morning :(. i hope my bloody skin problem get well soon. 25 December bebe will be here. i can't wait and will be preparing myself before meeting him haha.. i watched this movie so called Breakfast in Tiffany's role play by Audrey Hepburn. The plot of the story was great too, but not as nice as when she acted in Sabrina. Those dresses she wore was just the way tooooooooooo fine for a girl to indulge herself in vintage and luxury look. hahaha.. i just love to watch her. btw my bebe loves flowers, so do i, i have something for him when he's around.. haha.. i loveeeeeeeeeeeeee bebe so muchhhhhhhhh hahahahah... be, truly madly deeply taw bebeh loves u sangat2 wek!

he gave me this picture last nyte. and i when i opened the link, i found this picture very cute! kan kan? =p somehow i wish in future some creative people could make the cigs shape look like this..

thanks Bebe for the pic =p and this survey and picture i dedicated to my very soul, you.
hugs and kisses, Bebeh

La Vie En Rose

2007-12-09T01:27:00.000+08:00

i used to watch a movie entitled as Sabrina twice on last month. bukan my friend nama Sabrina ah.. neyh movie aites.. It stars Humphrey Bogart, Audrey Hepburn herself my idol and inspiration as Sabrina, and William Holden.

it was a very romantic piece of movie, meaningful.. and i found out an instrumental song nama dia La V ie En Rose.. how would u describe this word perfectly? based on dictionary.com punya translation dia cakap " Bed of Roses ".. based on wikipedia.org punya translation said tat it stands for " Life in Pink " so i guess in the combination of roses and life in pink la kan.. when i heard that tuned it m ade me feel serenade, the music talked to me and i feel the passion in it.. a very perfect song la.. perfect in the life of pink roses kot ahaha .

December 2 Double O and Seven

2007-12-08T22:05:00.000+08:00

So here comes me again, mmg hujung2 hari baru muncul.. haha.. that's me!
okek, so this month, there are couples of things to be done yet to be wait and to be to be laaa..

1) Waiting bebe to come over on the christmas morning! (this is my main priority anyway)
2) Consult skin specialist as soon as possible regarding my current skin problem
3) Clearing the remaining balance over the stuffs i bought. 1 down today, 2 more to go!
4) rooting!
5) facial and scrubs (as usual)
6) I WANT ICECREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM & DONUTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS T___________T

some were done.. some were notttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.. aisehhhh.. e5 e5 this month saja

life and my bebe =)

2007-08-18T16:56:00.001+08:00

it had been such a long time i didn't lodge myself in here. 4 months after the first post counting! guess what dowh, there was a lot of things happened to me during the months i was disappeared from the appearances over here.everybody owned their hard time, same goes to me. i've been doing myself really rough in my down period. i broke up with my 2 and the half years relationship bf like nobody business. and of course this matter took time to accept and forget right? now i gonna stop talking bout that bastard. thanks to Bebe(you know who u're). i may called you as my strength to do this. without you, i won't be able to smile again and again. without you, i won't be able to stabilize myself. without you, i won't be to stand up. without you, i won't be able to be what i am now. i feel so blessed to Allah sent me such a good savior like him to lift me up from the dark.

i guess, you mr/ms. reader might wondering whois the Bebe eh? haha.. he's my current boyfriend, or i may called him my soul mate(i'm very sure about this) in short explanation. i had known him for almost a year but things get us closer and closer when i treated him as my brother(aku kan takder adik lelaki) at that time. till one day, i found myself admired eventually(it happened on the late February 2007). i shall labeled myself as his secret admire haha. i fall for my own brother, yes, it's shy to admit it but yet it's true and fact thought. it took me time to know him well,to win his heart. everything was like so connected when i dreamed of him for the very first time in April. That was the sweetest dream ever, that dream brought me to hopes, and of course makin hari makin sayang aku sama dia. meanwhile, i pray to Allah a lot about him. so one day i could be with him. yet my prayer has been answered! syukur alhamdulilah. and now he's mine for sure. Our first meet was on the Triple 7(07 July 2007) at KL. For the very first eye contact met was in KLIA when he and Zai came and fetched me. the first thing i noticed was his eyes. haha.. there's no doubt that he has a pair of alluring eyes. there was so much things happened during the Triple 7, i could say it was very sweet of his pampered over me during the day. an unforgetable sweet memory. the Port Dickson was the witnessed of us. i was with him all the time till sending him back to his home till he left the car that night. he was going to UK for 2 weeks duration of vacation. then the sad stories began for 2 weeks.. dalam sedehy2 tu, 3 days after the triple 7(10 July 2007), i ended up all my hidden feeling with a truly confession towards him. then things was like i'm the most HAPPIEST woman on the earth as he proposed me a relationship juga that time.

that's how me and him get to be together. after a long await, but it's worth, at last after the prays and hopes i had been living and dreaming about all the time, he's mine and i'm not letting him go that easily. i love you so much Faris Ameer Izat bin Ismail. i love you so much bebe. i love you forever my soul love. i don't mind dying for his love. as long as i can keep him mine ever after.

bebe taught me more deeper meaning about love and happiness which i haven't experienced myself before. and of course, he's the one and only could make me smile happily with his own ability like nobody did to me before. he filled and brighten up my emptiness heart with his passion love and care. i admit, he's the man. yeah yoo he's the man.

lastly, mmg aku sayang gila sama dia okek? kekekeke...

the 19th birthday!

2007-04-15T13:53:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna be old i'll tell myself like so when every year i blow off the candles on my cakes. I'm officially turned 19 years old on last 27 March. I celebrated the birthday in P & C condition which only close friends and my parents are invited. of course my Dear listed on my priority. Unfortunately he couldnt come due to his work problem, couldnt get holidays on the specific date! that made me sad thought the invited guests was all my lovely and adorable babes, among them from my colleges and outside friends. So they were Momoi, Hana, Farrah, Nenet, Sabrina, Pearl and too both of my parents, Mama and Bapa. I love you all. And Dear, i wish u were there that day All of them gave me a very very nice present, some of them mmg cannot punya present like G-Strings and tabung la... cannot go btol la wakakaka... some of them bought me candles, what else ya? i don't remember thought! and most memorable was a picture frame which was a picture of me and one of my good friend =) thanks to u babe! oh yeah, forgot to mention, my party ceremony was held at beach hotel's Coco Joe restaurant, which i could tell you we're dining infront of the sea view and pool side.

Steambot for dinner! ♥

Moi and Sabrina ♥

Moi and Nenet

Moi and Hana ♥

Big smiles from moi after a suprising cake came after my back!

and so goes another smiley pose for 2nd action after the suprised!

Quite a blury piece of mine, don't know whose the cameragirl >,< so that was my cake for this year!

Mango Cheese Cake.

Honestly, it was so fabolous!

These were the babes that nite,

From left Farrah, Sabrina, Momoi, Moi myself, Pearl, Nenet and Hana. ♥

some pictures were quite blurry, so didnt upload it thought + imageshack sux. need to wait for few minutes then my picture get uploaded. what a sigh, really! so that's it.

P/S: Im getting older